Redefining Myself along the Journey!

 When was the last time you needed to redefine yourself? I remember the last time I had to redefine my self all too well.  I started my career at my current position fresh and ready to concur. Within eighteen months I was asked to step into a role that was undefined and challenging, but I felt the need to take the role to move up in the world.  I was okay for a while. But truth be told, the moment that the position bumped against my core values of humanity, I froze.   It did not take long for a new supervisor to hone in on my weaknesses. He defined me as incapable and unwilling to produce. The killer part of this story is, he focused in on my insecurities with my writing skills. I had revealed to him my struggles with writing in the particular role, and the landscape changed between us. He was not supportive. The focus of my developmental needs was not around leadership but my writing skills. I was horrified. I allowed his flawed perceptions of me define me as a writer.  It took me three years and a complete role change to remember the truth about myself after that experience. I was an influential writer. I had to come to terms with some weakness; I have dyslexia & I have to work harder than many when it came to self-editing my work. But, deep down I knew I was a good writer.  I had to go deep to redefine and remember who I was regarding my skills. Redefining myself has allowed me to see that the significant issues were not that I could not write. I dislike the tone and purpose of the writing in that role. It was to correct behavior and develop warnings. I had a moral writer's block that I could not escape. My insecurities and developmental needs were a smokescreen to the dissatisfaction with the type of writing, overall.   Thankfully today, I have overcome that experience, and I have started once again on this journey to redefine who I am. I am a vibrant, courageous, inquisitive author who also loves to create podcasts.   What about you, when was the last time you redefined yourself?   

When was the last time you needed to redefine yourself? I remember the last time I had to redefine my self all too well.

I started my career at my current position fresh and ready to concur. Within eighteen months I was asked to step into a role that was undefined and challenging, but I felt the need to take the role to move up in the world.  I was okay for a while. But truth be told, the moment that the position bumped against my core values of humanity, I froze. 

It did not take long for a new supervisor to hone in on my weaknesses. He defined me as incapable and unwilling to produce. The killer part of this story is, he focused in on my insecurities with my writing skills. I had revealed to him my struggles with writing in the particular role, and the landscape changed between us. He was not supportive. The focus of my developmental needs was not around leadership but my writing skills. I was horrified. I allowed his flawed perceptions of me define me as a writer.

It took me three years and a complete role change to remember the truth about myself after that experience. I was an influential writer. I had to come to terms with some weakness; I have dyslexia & I have to work harder than many when it came to self-editing my work. But, deep down I knew I was a good writer.

I had to go deep to redefine and remember who I was regarding my skills. Redefining myself has allowed me to see that the significant issues were not that I could not write. I dislike the tone and purpose of the writing in that role. It was to correct behavior and develop warnings. I had a moral writer's block that I could not escape. My insecurities and developmental needs were a smokescreen to the dissatisfaction with the type of writing, overall. 

Thankfully today, I have overcome that experience, and I have started once again on this journey to redefine who I am. I am a vibrant, courageous, inquisitive author who also loves to create podcasts. 

What about you, when was the last time you redefined yourself?