I strive to be a natural human in this project. I want others around me, in interviews & when they meet me, face-to-face to see the natural me; an aspect I have been working on for some time.
I am experienced with professionalism. I have been trained to share the parts of me that are polished, articulate, and valuable to others. I have been taught to hide the parts that are sometimes ugly, frustrating, annoyed, or opinionated.
Creativity and individualism were genuinely trimmed down to a manageable quark in fear of being offensive to others. Much like a gypsy who had to assimilate into society, I have hidden my artistic, true self!
But with this project, I wish to be my natural self, even my annoying habits or traits:
~ I do not want to hide the fact that I struggle with pronouncing author’s names.
~ I do not need to hide that often I fear the aspect of reaching out to others that I do not know.
~ I do not wish to protect myself from going on camera-- sometimes I have bad hair days and often do not wear any makeup!
~ I will not hide the fact that I am a novice audio editor and the podcasts can sound a bit rough.
~ I am a creative individual who is sometimes frazzled, often humbled and regularly struggling.
The truth is that letting this side of me shine is a new place for me. I am stepping away from the training that has served me well for many years regarding my professionalism and protecting myself.
I will always strive to be the polished professional that I am familiar with, but in those moments when my natural gypsy peeks through my exterior—I wish to be okay with that and share that part of myself as well.